Hello, my loves. I don’t know if these are necessarily resolutions, but I do have some goals for the year. My word for 2019 is “faith.” Faith in the Universe (or Spirit, or whatever you want to call the divine) that everything is happening as it should be for my highest good, that answers and solutions are all around me, that I already have the resources and tools I need to accomplish and create the things I need and want. Faith in my friends and loved ones to be there when I need them, and that my love and affection is valued by them, and that it is not a personal failing of mine if I need help from time to time with things. Faith that one day I’ll be loved romantically, and in the mean time continue being happy with myself and doing my thing and enjoying how supremely excellent I am.
My goal is to keep writing in my gratitude journal daily, and declutter the apartment. I’ve been writing nightly in my journal since the end of November and only missed a handful of days. I’m just listing things that I was grateful for that day. Sometimes it’s as simple as being thankful for love and friendship everyday. Sometimes things like “this person thought of me today and that made me smile,” or “I got paid” or “warm blankets.” Yesterday “plowed roads” made it on the list. I’ve only been doing this for two months, but it’s nice to sit at the end of the day and think about the good things that happened and the things I’m grateful for daily.
Decluttering won’t be hard. I just keep putting it off, and don’t look forward to the process of carrying things downstairs when I’ve finished organizing and getting rid of things. I’ll feel much better when it’s all done, though. My place will just have the things I actually want, less clutter, and easier to pack whenever I’m able to afford to move into a better living arrangement.
And of course, the ever-present, putting more money toward paying off student loans, forever and always. The joys of being a millenial, amirite. Unless any of you know of a generous millionaire who likes paying off people’s student loans, then let your girl know, okay? Otherwise, I’ll just keep chipping away at them slowly but surely.